I wish...

Dear Prieda

Since the day we met, my life became as beautiful as it never was. I never thought that I would fall in love, that I would have a person, who I would open my entire life to, who I can give away anything for. But had it not been for you, I would never come to know what it means to be in love.

Every single word you said to me, every moment we spent together, the craziest of adventures and the interminable moments of peace is the best part of my life. Remember, how we were fighting over an expressionist painting in that exhibition. Only to know one hour later that it was not for sale. But we ended up becoming friends. Later, the artist sent it to your home as a gift with his autograph. You got so happy that you called me up. That was your first call and I left my presentation in between. I threw my friends a party for that. And thereafter we started talking over and again.

When I was coming to visit you today, my son asked me, where are you going pa?’ I smiled and said, “A spiritual place.”

And that was not a lie because you make me feel the presence of God. It’s been 15 years since I am visiting your grave whenever I feel alone, just to share what’s happening in my life, and tell you how much I love you, value you, respect you. I hope you are listening, because you are still around, because I can feel you. Still, I sometimes wonder at few moments, at few places, what if you were there, how would you look like, what would you be saying to me, how would you smile at me,  and how would you be as my wife.

People say that you are gone, but I can forget anything, not you because I owe my life to you. You are still with me, through the memories of the years we spent together. I wish I could tell you, that the person who had sent you the painting was not the painter but the person who begged him on his knees and bought the painting from him at an exorbitant price, just for the cute girl with disarming smile and mellow voice.  I wish I could see your reaction at this. I wish I could annoy you to please later with your favorite lilies. I wish I could hug you today on your b’day. I wish you could wear this pendant I brought for you. I wish…

Love you forever.   

         -    Mark